Thursday, December 31, 2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE

It's a been a long hard year for me but my friends, you all have helped me make it through.

Even though you all aren't near me, you're arms reached to me and have held me when I cried, comforted me when i was angered, and shown me so many things I may have never learned without you.

I want to thank you all, for every moment, every second I've spent my time with you, for always making me smile and laugh like crazy xD

I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!

Thank you for the acceptance, the comfort, the laughter, the joy, and for the wonderful friendship I share with all of you.

May 2010 bring us more laughs, more smiles, and many more happy memories together.

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Feliz año nuevo amigos, gracias por siempre esta aqui conmigo, en los momentos malos, y buenos tambien. Que este año te trae muchas felicidades y paz.

Love you all, Happy New Year

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Wednesday, December 30, 2009

lolsingingat12am



I got in the mood for singing, and did so xD

lemme know what you think please, I'm trying to improve, i pause a bit towards the end, but that's cuz i got distracted by a text msg.

Things have been alright on my side of the world.

Got my ipod touch, and im happy with it.

Got rock band, sims 3, assassin's creed, glow hockey, cookin mama, guitar 2 (this one sucks just saying, luckily was free app, deleting later on), and hangman on it. those are just the games

for social networking got fb, ebuddy for chatting cuz that one had best ratings and comments, and skype for calling, but havent used those yet

mostly cuz got no internet connection working xD and my connection is being an ass.

but im more into the games atm anyway.

well then, tomorrow might go out with friends, if they come late though im not waiting, i got sick of that "we'll be there by this and this time" and then coming like hour or so later.

So i warned, if they dont come, at latest, 12 pm, im gone without them.

dont wait on no one anymore.

ooo! and david choi's coming to nyc, 5 days before my bday, i wanna go see.

this guy ->


he's awesome, and i wanna go see so bad, so asked another old bud of mine if she can come, and she's askin her mom :''DDD hopefully will know by tomorrow so i can order tickets.

thats all for now! laterz

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Jealousy

What is this?
I'm angry?
Why?
Now I see her hanging with us again...and I'm...feeling left out now..
We were being so close, and now it's like...you only used me to get HER angry...
It feels that way at least...and the fact she's suddenly so happy around us...
Yes you resolved the problem with her, but...what the..

I don't wanna say it, but I'm....
I'm......
I'm jealous?!

Oh my...I'm jealous...
Why?! this wasn't a prob before...
I....

Am I starting to wish you're attention was only on me?
why...

why?

if the way I'm acting is ruining our friendship...

then someone please, pull the trigger already.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Omegle Website

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!
Stranger: hey
You: hullo
Stranger: m or f
You: f
Stranger: nice =)
You: and u? o.o
Stranger: m
Stranger: age?
Stranger: im 19
You: 235 and still kicking :D
Stranger: what :S
You: jk xD im 15
Stranger: good =)
Stranger: do u have a msn adress?
You: maaaaybe
Stranger: =))
Stranger: please )=(
You: i dont even know you though xP
Stranger: sorry
Stranger: my english is not too good
Stranger: but
Stranger: please
Stranger: give me ur msn adess =(
You: what do you need it for darling
Stranger: i need a girl
You: im taken sorry
Stranger: please =(
You: dude o.o im taken
You: sorry but, try finding someone else? on a better site at least xD
Stranger: i want to u
Stranger: not someone else
You: you barely know me man, besides age and sex, i dont go around like that, and im with someone, i dont cheat :P
Your conversational partner has disconnected.

Friday, December 18, 2009

Sick

she's turnin' blue~

hullo all :o

guess what!? im sick xD

idk what it is, but my stomach keeps feeling nauseous and its annoying, had thrown up thursday morning, it was awful. Now i cant eat much cuz of how it makes my stomach feel and crap x.x so that makes me more tired than usual.

well, grandmother was sent to hospital on thursday, same day i got sick. She couldnt even walk, thats how bad her swollen leg got. And i've been thinking lately its my fault she got this bad.


Cause...

Not too long ago when she complained of me being disrespectful to her to dad and got me in trouble, i got so pissed, i said to myself i hope she dies so i don't have to deal with this anymore.

you never know how strong words can be until something like this happens. I've been hoping that she gets well, and that nothing happens to her...i imagine myself laying on her couch looking up at the ceiling crying for forgiveness...

all this happening while im sick isn't good cause i just end up feeling worse.

-siiiiiiiiiiiiiigh-

and dad says i should feel ashamed cuz i was disrespectful to her on wednsday, when that time i wasn't -.- i admit i was disrespectful to HIM over the phone, but not to her.

so he's pissed with me and crap, i tried hugging him today and last night, he basically pushed me away.

i was supposed to go to school today but didn't, and i had wanted to go on the skating trip ._. but in the end, i turned off my alarm telling myself i'd stay home.

I had a vocab test too, so idk whats gonna happen with that..

ooo, and i put fake nails on x.x

typing only took a lil time to get used to, but texting is hell, was msging gf on phone and it took me forever to respond xD

and every time i tried being faster just ended up being slower xDD

oh lordy, i guess thats all i got to say now, laterz

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Hullo from a chilly room temperature.

Good day to you all, and to all a good night~

don't ask.

well, looooong time no see. last blog, answer to that transfer question i left you guys on for weeks, is no. Would've had to done it during the summer way I wanted to, but again, influence of mother dear.

Well, this week's been rough. Stress attacked soon as monday afternoon came. And I already forgot wth got me stressed on monday.

But yeah lotsa crap goin down, found out a lot of stuff I didn't expect, a lot of stuff I kinda wish I wasn't told.

1) possibility of my own mother planning to get my dad into jail, to make him seem like the bad one in this "relationship"

like wtf? didn't get enough thrill on torturing us for past 19 years?

Not even gonna continue on that, because even IDK if it will happen, if she even truly plans to.

2) this week some idiot cry baby at school decides to get me in trouble for the most retarded reasons!

Yan, thats his name =_= jewish kid, I used to have no prob with talking to, but we had incident in the beginning of the year

he said something very insulting to me, i hit him in the head.

Yeah, anger probs, piss me off the wrong way and that's what ppl will recieve. A fuckin smack to the face, and I can beat the crap out of someone if I wanted to, I just control myself from that point.

anyway, I was warned, and apparently I was to keep my hands to myself.

Day before yesterday i was doing group work with him, was asking for the dictionary, and he wasnt answering me, so I tapped him on the damn head and APPARENTLY that was a very hard hit =_=

I was trying to get his fucking attention, thats what you gotta do with tone deaf ignorant bitches!

and then he goes "alex i thought we werent supposed to hit!" i looked at him saying i never agreed to that and he shouldnt go off complaining about it to anyone because I didn't mean for it to seem like a hit.

and guess what the mother fucker does! goes off and tells one of our counselors, Kathe, AND tells our spanish teacher too =_=

Had to go to an unnecessary meeting with him and Beth, our other counselor, wasting MY time, which I could've used for hw, and studying.

So, I said he needs to stay away from me, because I don't need anymore of this, I have enough problems to deal with and I don't want to cause anymore, or get into anything with anyone.

we even had to sign a paper to agree on it like W T F /facepalm

so much fuckin waste of time. all cause he's a cry baby. Let him go through what I go through, and see wtf a "hard hit" is.

I'm sure the lil fucker is spoiled =_= either that or treated like lil prince at home.

AND WHATS SO FUCKED UP IS


I saw someone else hit him in the morning, and he didn't go off complaining like a lil baby.

such bullshit I swear.

today he also got bit close to me and I feel like telling Beth that =_= this time telling him to stay at least 6ft away, because I cant take any chances, people are bitches and love to see someone else get blamed.

he's also in most of my classes so imagine how annoying that is -_-

I wanna take that head smash against table!!!

yes I sound so abusive and crap, but gawd, when something like this is thrown at you when you have enough stress already its like wtf I have enough on my shoulders already.

you think people would just think before doing anything and think of what their "target" is going through for just a minute, and say to themselves "ya know what its not worth it" cause what did he get out of this? nothing, just the loss of my friendship, if it was even one.

I'm sure he's gossiping his lil ass off time to time about this, but ya know what, I don't care. Let him call me a bitch, and talk about me, and the next time this happens, if it ever does, I will blame him before he can get to me. Since HE'LL be the one breaking the rules.

and I'll be the one laughing home.



I'll be laughing because of how stupid he is, and just cause I need some happiness time to time.

This world is supposedly a combination of love and hate,

but I swear,

there's a huge possibility of at most, 97% being hate. The other 3%?

those are the ones who actually care...and I wish, we had more of them.