Thursday, March 18, 2010

In pain

It's been a while yes and yes a lot has happened, apologies for all this silence, it's just I'd stare at my blog, want to write, then lose the wanting after a while of staring.

and yes, changed template again xD

needed a change again.

that sounds repeated..


A LOT has happened.

I believe I mentioned my grades in last post?

well yeah, been doing better, slowly.

But at least I'm doing better -thumbs up-

let's see...well got sick this week

tuesday I woke up not feeling so great, but decided I should go to school and try surviving the day.

By the time lunch came I couldn't take it anymore, so went to office with my bud jasmine and called my mom asking her to ask dad to pick me up. My asthma had been acting up over the last weekend cuz of the rain and then I suddenly got a cold, when tuesday came I guess that's when the cold decided to really kick in.

Everyone that came into the office either said I really looked awful and needed to get home, or asked if I was ok because I looked dead.

I was sleeping in all my morning classes, so I knew I needed to get home, I wasn't gonna be able to survive the rest of the day. My sinuses were hurting and I really needed to rest.

I had mentioned to one of the ladies in the office that I'm close with (Susan [haha, she has mama's name xP her AND the principal e.o]) that I had trouble breathing when coming up the stairs in the morning because of my asthma. And she asked if I brought my pump, and I told her no, (I never bring my pump to school, I don't like using it because you can get easily addicted to that) and she told me I have to bring it to school, and get an extra one to keep in my locker.

She also asked if I wanted to go to the nurse so they can use a neutralizer (if I remember correctly that's what it's called?) to help check my breathing and all that junk. At the time I didn't know what it was, and said I'll just wait for my dad to come.

So she let me wait there while eating my lunch with Jasmine and talking, then 5th period came so Jasmine had to go, bid me farewell and gave me a hug, hoping for me to get better.

I wait all the way till the beginning of 6th period for my dad to finally call the office telling them he's downstairs. Susan took came down with me in the elevator and she said when it comes to asthmatics getting sick they need to be very careful because it's more risky for them, and she said she understands because her husband happens to have asthma as well. So she said I NEED to bring my pump cause being without it is dangerous, cause we never know what may happen.

So I agreed, she spoke with my dad for a bit, he signed me out of school, and she said if I needed to be home longer that she can send home my work. I never called though...

Today I feel a bit better, my breathing is a bit better, my sinuses don't hurt. Still can't breathe through my nose properly though, and from blowing it so much it's cut from the tissues I have.

so it hurts when I touch it in certain spots. Still got the cough, my throat hurts only a bit at times. haven't been eating much cause I get nauseous after taking a few bites of food, or even drinking certain things. Today I ate a bit more though, half a sandwich, and drank like half the coffee dad bought me, but the coffee and sandwich got my stomach feeling nauseous after a while so I started drinking my iced tea and it made me feel better.

I'm probably gonna ask dad to buy me more iced tea later xD

Idk if I'm going to school tomorrow, but I might have to. It's only half-a-day tomorrow, so I'll only be there until lunch time, which end at like 11:09 am.

...-blows nose in tissue-

my garbage is almost full again with these...xD

also, been thinking about Mikee again...I still miss her, it's hard to let go cause this was the real ending. I'm trying to move on, talking to people to keep her off my mind but sometimes the image comes back when I listen to certain songs..

I had a lot planned with her, and now it's gone. Now I feel like I don't know what my future is gonna be. I mean, I'll still be aiming for all the stuff I wanna do when out of college, but all the rest is a blur...

it truly sucks, losing someone you've been with for so long :/

Idk what to do with myself.

well..that's it for now I guess.

laterz everyone


Kat said...

You'll survive !
We're here for yoou

And yeah, it does suck when you've really loved someone ._.

Long time no talk, btw o_o"

αlєх said...

haha xD long time indeed

Kat said...

I miss yoou ;-;

αlєх said...